It's Times Like These

It's times like these,
you learn to live again,
It's times like these,
you give and give again,
It's times like these,
you learn to love again,
It's times like these,
time and time again.

D. Grohl

With every step and every breath, the sky gets a little more vivid. The fall colors a little brighter and air carries a bit more chill. I feel myself waking up after that post traumatic stress dealy. Sure i wasnt in a wreck ( unless you consider the train wreck that my life was), but i feel more alive now than i have in ages. Every step i take forces the past out of my life and the possibility of the future in. All i have left of that nightmare is 2 credit card bills and two children lacking a father. I am probably lucky that way. I am not in a rush to find a replacement for him either, I am quite happy with my family and my life in the state it is in. With all these things coming back to me, i am leary of all the other things that may return as well, like the pain and the 'betrayed' feeling. Another good reason not to rush right back to the domestic bliss seeking that i am so famous for. So i guess i carry on, step by step through the bright leaves under the vivid sky.